Atlantic Shitty

Atlantic Shitty
Originally uploaded by steakbellie.

People get really really stupid when it comes to gambling. I worked in advertising in AC for 5 years and got to see first hand old lady's taking 3 slot machines hostage and playing all 3 as fast as they possibly can. Women who later in the day unravel a coupon to get a dollar off the pressed meat sandwhich buffet. I recently spent a night in a casino a 100 yards away from where I used to work. I watched them build the tower that this photo was taken in.

I gambled $40 the whole night, but I think that's only because I've been around it and saw what a sad thing it really is. I just have a distast for it I guess. However I LOVE playing poker, but not in a casino.....

Most of the people I went with lost between $200 and $500. Perfectly sane reasonable people who are able to balance checkbooks and run businesses. And sure most of it can be chalked up to having fun. Taking a chance and laughing when you loose.

Remeber this: Towers of Glass and Steel do not rise out of the swamp for free. They arent giving a thing away and your stuipid system isnt smarter than theirs.

Fuck It

All of this Introspection has crashed upon my wall of Self Hatred.
Oh look, America's Oldest Brewery has sent sent 12 Green Bottles for me to process.......

OK so it's mostly Good.....

I'm still very surprised at how this whole thing came about. I was planning on putting in a year until my wife finished grad school, and then dropping a line to see what's biting. I've been here 6 month and only recently stopped dreading it. My last few months have been very productive and I guess that made a good impression. Mostly I kept my mouth shut...guess that was the kicker. Keep your mouth shut and smile.

Here's a quote that I can attribute to Donovan McNabb, that I've been taking to heart when put in these kind of situations...."Act like you've been there"

The Good, The Bad, You're Ugly

The Good:
The owner of my company wants to spin off my Department, and has asked me if I'd like to run it...kinda a surprise, kinda scary, very exciting. Several projects need to be complete first..he thinks it's 6 months, looks like a year from my seat.

The Bad:
Other parts of our company have been growing and we're running out of space. They will probably move my dept to another floor to make room, and to get it to start acting like it's own company. I have a really nice office. It's all windows and is the second biggest office on the whole floor. If we move, I'll probably be downgraded.

Doing everything but what's important

Katie & Nicole

Katie & Nicole
Spitting up formula in
Matching pink onesies

Black Thirteen

The locks have grown long
He's waiting for the high priest
To bring it all down

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no, yes, no; dunno
maybe; i'll see; no, no, no
no, yes, no; dunno

Painfully Bored.........

STEAKBELLIE CALLED OUT SICK

THERE'S A GUY AT MY WORK WHO IS IN CHARGE OF LETTING THE OFFICE KNOW WHEN SOMEONE CALLED OUT SICK OR IS RUNNING LATE. HE SENDS ME AN EMAIL EVERYDAY, AND EVERY GODDAMNED LETTER IS CAPITILIZED. I HAVE GOTTEN SO IMMERSED IN THE INFORMATION AGE, THAT I PERCEIVE IT AS YELLING. I WINCE WHEN I READ HIS EMAILS!!!!

The Struggle Within

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Originally uploaded by steakbellie.

I was thinking about life this morning. It became clear that there are very very few situations in your life that you must choose between good and evil....right and wrong. Most of the things we have done that we regret come about from a long series of decisions or (mostly) inactions that lead us down a path to that end. You dont want to be obese, but tiny tiny choices that you make during the day have brought you this particular end. Maybe you guys fries with that...over and over. The guy who takes the stairs....he's investing in a result that's years away.

Lifting today will not make you Mr Universe. Be consistant. Make it part of your routine. Plan it before your busy day envelops you. Years from now you will able to clearly see the path you have walked down, and plenty examples around you of those who chose the other.

We dont want our relationships with our friends, spouses, and children to suffer and fall apart, these failures take time, a long time. Not talking to your son when you had the time, not bringing flowers home to the old lady, not calling your buddy to see how they are.

Things fall apart. You have to invest alittl bit of energy now to even have a CHANCE. If you wait till later it may be too big a project to overcome.

Hell, it's one of the laws of thermodynamics....things naturally go to disorder. Turn off the TV, get off that fucking computer...make something small today.

Answered Prayers

A great friend of mine has always wanted twins in his bed....now he has them...just not as he expected it.

Question of the Day

If I get drunk and play Gran Turismo 4, am I breaking any laws? What if I'm really good at it?

"Satisfied Needs Do Not Motivate"

Bring Out Your Dead

Bring Out Your Dead
Originally uploaded by steakbellie.

my dream

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so here's last nights dream.
I'm camping out on the deck of the Battleship New Jersey with a bunch of guys I used to work with. We're sitting on old lawn chairs playing poker and drinking heavily. Suddenly I feel that something is wrong....something is missing...i'm heartbroken, somethings not right.....
thats it

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words can be flowers
letters make the soft petals
intent, the fragrance

My War

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Originally uploaded by steakbellie.

You have to wonder about the brain. I woke up this morning with "My War" from Black Flag playing over and over in my head. It's been playing for at least 3 hours now.
"You're one them, you say you're my friend, but you're one of them...."
Who's the DJ in here? Why this song today? Why over and over? Is this a message from my subconscience, or just something stupid my brain has latched onto? Did this happen to Cave people? Instead of music did they hear coconuts knocking? How about deaf people, do they have something similar but with Braille?
"Aniahilate!!!!!"

Principle Trumps Opportunity, Rock Beats Scissors

My world travelling parents returned from Italy on Saturday and now the Pope is dead.

One of their stops was in Pisa. My Dad glowed with excitement describing the city and the famous leaning tower. It was built as a 'thankyou' to Mary for letting them win a particular battle.
"Do they let people climb the tower"
"Yes, they restored it beautifully, and secured it so that it still leans but cannot fallover."
"Did you climb to the top?" "No, the crooks wanted $20 a person to go to the top"
"Dad"
"Yes?"
"You were on the other side of the world! You were right there! Now if you ever want to go to the top it will cost you $2020 because you will have to fly there first!"
"Nope, I'm not getting taken like that...
....you should have seen Florence!"

Icecream Truck Haiku

prowling streets again
free jingles, but cash for treats
re-circling my block

rittenhouse

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Originally uploaded by steakbellie.

I take them to my park. It's not like normal, today is the first nice day of Spring, and it is packed with people.

Lunchtime Lovers
Mothers watching children
Mothers watching Nannys watching children
Students
Tourists
Business People

I walk here everyday. 3 laps when the weather is cold, 5 when it's nice
My wife waits for cheesesteaks while I field questions
Can we see your Work from here?
Do you work in the tallest building?
If a plane attacks that building will we be killed?
Can I have a soda?

We try to do a lap, they climb on every statue, find old tennis balls and watch the people pick up the dog-poop with their plastic bags

We eat our cheessteaks. They're very good.
Thanks for coming to see me, it's nice to not be alone for lunch.

I'm going to go to school here someday
I'm going to live here someday
Can I have another soda?

Thats enough venom for today

I'll spend all weekend thinking of something nice to write for next week......

Terri Shivo's First Full Day in Hell

Thats not my opinion. Personally I think she's been in hell for 15 years and now she's finally at rest. It's actually the opinion of most of the people who were fighting to keep her hooked up. Most of them are 'Born Again' Christians, and they believe that if you arent 'Born Again' then you go to hell. No Questions asked, no exceptions. Terri Shiavo was NOT a Born Again Christian, she was a Roman Catholic, and Evangelicals hate Catholicism. Catholics do not go to Heaven

George W Bush is having a prayer service for the Pope as we speak. Next time you see him ask him where the Pope goes when he dies.

I know this because Tyler knows this.

The cover of the paper this morning had her poor Father leading a prayer service in an Evangelical Church. Behind him was a huge TV screen with high end graphics and
band to sing 'Praise Music'. They are using poor Mr Shindler and his dead daughter to build a 'Culture of Life'. Essentially building a case and precident to overturn Abortion....this poor woman has become their ralling cry and their martyr yet she's not welcome in their heaven.

Pope for a Day

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Originally uploaded by steakbellie.

When I was a kid, we had a new Pope everyday. They were constantly Pontificating and then dieing. This one seems to have really rocked the system, refusing to die when he was shot, or when Sinead O'Connor tore up his picture.

I'm not Catholic, but I like this Pope. He's smart and speaks a million languages. He likes to travel alot and see the people on the ground, when he can. Plus he LOOKS like a Pope. It's hard to imagine that somebody else will get to wear that beanie.

Interesting Pope Trivia....the bodies of dead Popes are mumified! The reasoning goes that at the resurrection, the Popes will need them when they come back to life, so that they can help Jesus and whatnot!

Caffienated Venom

I dont think theres enough coffee in this fucking machine to sustain me. Another late night for stupid reasons. I dont have anything nice to say, and alot of it.